2008-07-15 - 10:06 a.m.
Tuesday morning
So, remember how bad I was feeling yesterday? How I said I just wanted to curl up and stay in bed? Well, I wound up falling asleep for three hours. I was very scared when I woke up because it is so unlike me to fall asleep like that when I'm the only one home to watch the kids. In fact, it's strange for me to sleep during the day at all. Then, when I woke up, I really wanted to go back to sleep, I didn't feel like getting anything done. Eventually, I did get some housework done, and my friend from across the street came over, and I was genuinely happy to see her. She invited me and the girls to go to the mall with her on Thursday. I'm looking forward to that also.
Then, the baby fell asleep in her high chair around 6:30, so I was going to go to bed early. I was tired already. Well, she got up right when I was about to go to bed, of course, even though it was like 9:30. Anyway, the two older girls were watching a movie in the living room, so I put the baby in her high chair with a snack and let her watch the rest of the movie, then I went and laid down. I wasn't sure what to do at that point. Would the baby go back to bed? Would I have to stay up with her all night? I was so tired! I didn't want to deal with anything.
I had told Leo about my nap. I was almost in tears about it. He was very sweet about it though, and he said not to worry, but not to lie down in the bed anymore, at least lie on the couch if I get tired so I can be more aware of the children. The baby was in her high chair the whole time I was asleep, and the two older girls were playing video games. I really felt horrible about it when I got up, horrible about leaving the baby in her high chair so long.
Anyway, so Leo helped me get the kids to bed after the movie was over, and he really helped me deal with the baby all night. I was very grateful. Then, this morning, when I woke up, the baby was sleeping in the bed with me. Leo was like, what's going on? And I said, I don't know, apparently she came in here in the night and fell asleep. He was asking me what time it was when she did, but I really had no idea, because I don't really remember it happening at all. He said he had taken her back to her bed around 2am, and I was like, well it was after that.
Anyway, so I feel better today, ready to get some housework and planning for schooling done today. I don't know if perhaps I am just lacking sleep or something, and then getting caught up now is helping me feel better, or perhaps it's something more. I don't know, but I feel like I should probably try to go to bed as early as possible every night.
Anyway, I'm getting distracted by the tv and the baby, so this probably hasn't made any sense at all, but if I can, I'll write more later.
Right now I'm going to get some housework done, or eat, then get some housework done. :)
